My New Happiness

Since my last blog was kinda depressing I figured I would make this one happy, so here it goes.

I broke up with my boyfriend, of three and a half years, about two months ago. I was sad of course, I mean I loved him after all, but he hurt me so much. The sad part was I kept going back to him for more. When I broke up with him I was scared because he said thing to me that made me think I would never be good enough. He told me that, "No guy will ever put up with you." And other things like that. So I was scared to leave him and I am scared now that I will never find someone. But for every door that is closed a new one opens. I guess that is true, and let me tell you I am so glad I closed that door. I got rid of a boyfriend and gained some new friends.

Whoever said that having a friend online is not having a real friend is a complete and utter moron. *cough cough* Nutzo *Cough Cough* For all those who don't know who Nutzo is... you don't need to! Why does that make a person a moron? Well... I have made two of the bestest friends I could have online and they know me as much as all my friends I have in person.

Okay so let me start with my first friend that I made online. We started talking because of this girl that is a total bitch decided to post a generated picture up and tag me as poor when she doesn't know me. So I decided to ask her Best Friend if she knew why the girl didn't like me. Turns out the girl is just a bitch and even her best friend decided to drop her. After that we just started talking more.

Let me just say that the girl was stupid for giving up such a friend. I gained a best friend because of her bitchiness. My new Best Friend, from here on called E, is such a wonderful person. She is kind, sweet, intelligent, funny, loyal, and so many amazing things. She makes my day brighter every time I get to talk to her.

My next online friend, from here on called H, is like my life line. Seriously, she has done so much for me. I met her on E's book's forum -- yup, E co-wrote a book and she is writing a series of her very own also. Anyways, that is were I met H and guess what... H co-wrote a book also. I don't even know how I got the courage to start talking to her because honestly I'm kinda shy. But one day I went for it. Then we started talking more often and found that we have a lot of things in common. She even steals my thoughts. Hahaha... just kidding.

She is also kind, funny, sweet, loyal, and so, so much more to me. She makes me smile when I'm sad, and makes me feel so much more better about myself. I think without her I might have gone a little crazy.

These two people helped me so much more than they have realized. They made me realize I am special and that I am better than I think I am. I'm not saying my friends in person don't do that because they do. I have amazing best friends around me and they make me laugh and we do stupid things together, but E & H have helped me just as much.

I can not wait until June when H and I road trip our way to visit E! I'll be turning twenty-one, and I will get to hang with my bbfls! It is sure to be the best birthday I will ever have!

The main point here is that a person does not have to be in front of you to be a friend. A person just has to care about you to be a friend. They have to want to know if you're okay after a wake, talk you into continuing writing when you believe you suck, make you feel better about yourself in every way, make you feel happy, cheer you up when you are down, stick up for you, want to kick the butts of every person that has and ever will hurt you, etc. E & H have done all of the above for me, and I for them (at least I hope I have heehee).

So I end this off with some quotes that make me think of them (E & H):

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. ~Author Unknown

Are we not like 'three' volumes of one book?
~Marceline Desbordes-Valmore

"Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart.”
~Unknown

Friends ask you why you are crying... best friends already have the shovel ready to bury the loser that made you cry.
~Unknown

True Friends Equals,
U cry I cry,
U fight I fight,
U jump off a bridge,
I get a paddle boat,
& save Ur stupid ass.
~ Unknown

A friend will stop you from over reacting. A best friend will walk beside you giggling "someone is gonna get it!"
~Unknown

You are my best friend. And that means no matter how far away you are, or how far away you are, or how late in the night it is. When you need me, I promise I will always be there. <3
~Unknown

You two are great friends but if the zombies chase us I'm tripping both of you.
~ Unknown and changes by me. :o) I couldn't resist haha.